The Struggle IS Real.

Driving in the car Saturday morning. Alone. Fresh 

coffee. 

Headed to my Mother's Day mani/pedi morning-o-fun. 

One could say I was beyond giddy.

A song comes on the radio and absolutely blew me 

away. Hearing the words 

I don’t wanna think / I may never understand / That my 

broken heart is a part of your plan / When I try to pray / 

All I’ve got is hurt and these four words...Thy will be done

I think of that often. Not just for myself, but for so many other 

people going through so much worse than my "crappy day" 

or "my hair just not doing right." {Which sometimes it doesn’t 

and drives me bat crazy.} My heart tugs at me about so 

many issues that are going on with people I love. Will I ever 

understand? Will all of this make sense, ever? Why is 

breaking hearts and testing faith to the upmost max part of 

his plan? With my mind racing through every situation I have 

been praying about, I continue to replay the song. All friggin’ 

day.

Thoughts:

Sucky crap-o-la. Sometimes things really do just SUCK. 

Sometimes I want to yell, throw crap at the wall (or 

someone), curse (shocking), shout out to the heavens “Why, 

Lord Jesus, Why?! Why this family? Why that person? Why 

are my prayers so angry or to the extreme opposite, so 

WEAK? How can I look someone in the eye and tell them 

this will make sense someday, when I replay those moments 

in my head, and they never will? Why and how, Lord?”

Then….this…

Sometimes I gotta stop / Remember that you’re God / And I 

am not / So …Thy will be done.

Whoa Nelly. Fix my eyes on Jesus much? NOT my plans, 

HIS. 

His timing, His plans, His will. It will be done.  

The song 

continues…

I know you see me / I know you hear me, Lord / Your plans 

are for me / Goodness you have in store.

 He promised. He promised he has plans for me and all of 

the people that are suffering around me. As much as it hurts 

now, for anyone struggling, push your 

faith. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I know, the 

struggle IS REAL. 

I struggle daily with the "whys" and "hows", doubts, faith, 

emotions. And you know what? So do the people I love, the 

ones I like and those that are on 

my "meh" list. I pray for ALL of them (even the "meh"s) and 

for myself. #selfishmuch 

He sees me and He hears me. So I will continue, 

even when I am angry, weak and wonder why my broken 

heart is a part of his plan. 

Listen to this song. Now. {Linked}

Maybe have some wine and a few tissues 

around. Maybe a lot of both.